A question of faith.....finding peace

Do we, in the hardest of times, forgo our faith in God? Or do we, as Christians. trained up to be forthright in our beliefs, use trying times as a way to solidify what we hold to be true about Him?

After hearing my daughter proclaim to her siblings the other day that..."what does not destroy us, makes us stronger", I felt the need to try to explain to them that God does not give us more then we can handle..... I tried to show them examples of what I meant, yet I feel I fell short in doing so. I believe this only because I know it to be true, yet how do I convey this to my children........must they endure their own "whats" in life in order to discover this for themselves or will they accept it as it's face value?

I pray. I pray all the time, it matters not where I am or what I am doing....but I don't usually pray all that much about myself....it is mostly for others. Before my surgery I prayed to God to see me through it so that my family would not have to bear losing their mother/wife, yet in my heart, I was scared. Then afterwards I was told that things had been very iffy during my surgery, that I came close to dying....... But I know that the power of prayer must have played a part in my survival, so many were praying for me.

When I have come up against, or better when I have felt as if I were walking in "the valley of the shadow of death" I knew I was not alone...... There have been times, much to my chagrin, that I have questioned God directly....and that bothers me because I have always held onto my beliefs, no matter what. Even now, as I continue to face an uphill battle to recover from my injury as well as the surgery that caused it.....I hold onto the fact that I know there is a reason for all of it, I just may never know what it that reason is.....

During my husband's deployments, I, like many military spouses, had difficulty sleeping. The middle of the night shadows would creep up and all my worst fears would come out to play....yet, I knew that it was just my subconscious working it's self overtime.....but that knowledge did nothing to calm my fears. Only prayer did.

As I have aged, I have come to accept the fact that not all prayers are answered the way we may want them to be.....The song "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks has always been a favorite of mine, simply because it speaks of such a great gift that God gives us. One we may not see at the time......and while I may not hold all the answers, much less all the questions, I do know that often, God is THE answer.

None of us knows what tomorrow will bring. For some it brings life, for others, death, but it always brings us the promise of another day........I find peace in that knowledge and I am thankful.


  1. Wow, ASW. You hit a nerve today. A raw, exposed nerve. I have struggled desperately in the last year since we PCS'd from North Carolina. Going through this move was fought with spiritual battles that I ultimately felt I had lost... but there's victory in our God. There's always victory. I can't even touch how to deal with this as a parent, I just know as a Wife, as a Christian... I have to stay strong and know that in my moments of weakness, that He's still there... always there and will never, ever give me more than I can handle. What he dishes up to us is never too much- we just don't know it at the time. We become stronger in our skin, stronger in our faith but it might take some time.
    That song almost always brings me to tears. We, as a people want so desperately to control everything and lash out when we don't get our way- but the reward at the end is so much better.
    I'm not even going to read my comment, I know I'll end up editing it to make it more Internet PC- just know that you have people that pray for you- if if they don't know you and you don't know them. We're all part of this great community called Military Families- and I know I pray for Military Families everyday.
    ~The Cat's Pajamas

  2. I believe that God does have a plan for us. We may pray for what we think should happen but God knows what's best for us and what will enable us to grow. Be grateful for all that you have been through. Else you wouldn't be the amazing woman you are now.


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