My husband called me this afternoon, (night~time for him)......to say goodnight. He need not say anything for me to tell how things are for him....I could tell from the sound of his voice that it had been a hard day......another in a series of them. There is so much going on right now that no one has much control over. My life here at home, unfortunately falls into the same category right now..... that stress, compounded on the issues he faces daily has made things all the more difficult for him. I guess if it were me, I too would want to talk to my wife at the end of the day to feel like I had some normalcy in my life, to know that I was connected, if only by a phone line to the life I left so long ago.....

But, it was one of those conversations where neither one of us had much to say to one another. I hate those. They leave me feeling as if I have failed him in some capacity as his partner, his wife....his best friend. They also leave me very sad. We have always made it a given that we end those conversations instead of dragging them out, no use making it any worse on either of us.

As we were getting ready to say goodbye my husband quietly said to me"Babe, I miss you so much today and I love you....." the words kind of caught in his throat as he sighed ".....and I just wanna come Home."

....... just a little while longer and you will be home.....although be it for just a short time, and....... I miss you so much too......


  1. You're tugging at the heartstrings and opening the flood gates, here.

    It's so hard to hear them that way and not be able to do anything at all about it. DH called me last year after a friend of his was killed and it was just gut wrenching to not be able to hold him, be there for him. I know how that feels, you're certainly not alone.

  2. It is so tough to not be there for them, for your best friend. I so understand...

  3. Those conversations are hard. How is the housing mess going. Still thinking of you.. Hope things take a turn for the better, sooner rather then later.


  4. Thanks for all the kind words everyone..... and the hug BW

    house mess hm......

    house 1 me 0 ..... not sure where it's all headed, except no where fast towards where I want it to be....

    I will make an update post when things have some resolution in one way or the other.....still hoping for one way....the other still sounds really bad to me.

    ~keeping my head up and trying to smile ASW

  5. ASW,
    I am sorry to hear that housing is still a mess...



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